Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Attacking Myself

Today is one of those days where every ounce of news seems like horribly bad, earth shattering, bad bad news. I know I am being obsessive on things and freaking out on little things but I can't seem to just chill the fuck out. The little things are snowballing and I have a list that is bugging me now. My sister told me a while back she was moving to Idaho and we went over there and blah blah she said she wanted to give me more stuff before the moved so I asked when through an e-mail about a month ago. No response. I got an e-mail first thing yesterday morning with a picture of the house they are renting in Idaho and saying how much fun the kids are having in the snow. I don't know why but it hurt....I wanted to see the kids once more before she left, I am sure things were busy before the move but at least an e-mail saying they have no time would have been better then nothing. Another little thing is we took my car in last week for a smog which I was SURE it wouldn't pass and got so freaking nervous then they said it passes, woohoo! We picked it up and this week I went online to pay my vehicle registration and it still said no smog results....hmmm. Eric called and they realized there was a miscommunication between the writer and mechanic and they only did a pre-smog test.....yet we paid for a smog. Does anyone actually only go in for a pre-smog test? NO! Anyways so last night we had to take my car BACK in for a smog.

I am so aware of how dumb this shit is but in my head once I get relief and then find out it wasn't real it's depressing. So many emotions for nothing. Of course on top of retarded obsessions on little upsets I have been super emotional over my mom still. I just wish with everything I could talk to her, she always had a way of relieving my brain of little things. Eric has been trying to make me more aware of when I am getting worked up for nothing which helps sometimes and sometimes it feels like I'm worked up and being attacked for it. WHY can't I just fucking RELAX?!?!

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Influenster J'ADORE VOX BOX Review!!

I LOVE Influenster and I LOVE trying new products! So of course getting this box in the mail had me jumping up and down with excitement! So this is my thoughts on what I found & tried inside! Hold onto your hats people!

Boots Botanics Shine Away Iconic Clay Mask #powerofplants @Bootsbeautyusa
    Was apprehensive about trying this because I have such sensitive skin and little things (like even just trying a new product once) will set it off! But I tried it nervously after I showered you apply it to your skin and leave it on for about 10 minutes. If feels refreshing on your skin like your skin is being pampered and then when you rinse it off my skin felt super clean but not dried out and tight. It felt healthy and fully cleaned! I loved it! I told my husband about it because he has problematic skin and he wants to try it now too!

Hershey's Kisses Milk Chocolate Family size bag #Loveandkisses @Hersheyskisses
     HELLO!!! Chocolate!!! you can't go wrong! I had to wrestle the bag away from my the Hubs :) so good! I even used some to make cookies! Simple smooth and delicious, melt in your mouth, perfectly portioned little indulgence....YUM!

Frizz Ease 3-Day Straight Flat Iron Spray #3DaysStraightlove @JohnfriedaUS
    Another nervous one to try, my hair is VERY thin and gets oily super fast and adding products is always an internal battle wondering if I am going to have to jump back in the shower and wash my hair again because I look like a grease monkey!  My hair does get frizzy looking in the ends after I blow dry so I try to use leave in conditioner normally on the ends which is always Russian roulette of how much product will ruin it or not. BUT I skipped the leave in and spray this product on my hair and used the flat iron and WOW! Super shiny, straight, fizz free locks! Says it stays straight for up to 3 days or your next shampoo which mine was the day after the next but did what it said, of course by hat time my thin hair was a greasy mess anyways! I did like it, not entirely sure if I liked it better then my normal routine, I tend to see super shiny as looking greasy with my hair, so we shall see if I try again or incorporate this into my routine.

Kiss Looks So Natural Lashes  #Kisslashes @Kissproducts
     NOT a fake eyelash kind of girl of course seeing these in the box got my husband all perked up about me putting them on more then they did me :), MEN! But they look super natural with tapered ends and natural color looking which is how I would want them to look if I did ever purchase these on my own. So of course around Valentine's Day I figured the next day I would Surprise him and have them on. They were a little tricky to get both lashes in the right place and look normal. Again my eyes are sensitive so I was blinking like crazy which made this a task! Regardless once they were on, they felt weird at first but they were VERY light and after 20 minutes I totally forgot about them! Hubs LOVED them haha duh! I would definitely try these again, they made me feel like I amped up my look and Hubs confirmed it :). No shame in going the little extra for good results! Love em!

Red Rose Simple Indulgent Teas 4 samples #Simplyindulge @Shareredrose
     I LOVE tea so I was super excited to try a brand I haven't even heard of! Unfortunately they sent 4 tea bags to sample 3 were Carmel flavored and I HATE Carmel! But one was Lemon Chiffon flavored and luckily I love Lemon. So I had that before bed expecting a tart tea but instead it was so smooth and sweet and full of Lemon flavor! It tasted like a lemon bar dessert in a drink! So So good! I immediately put it on my grocery list! YUM!

Vaseline Men Spray Lotion  #Menspray @VaselineBrand
      What the heck?? I have to share my goodies??? Haha j/k I was actually super happy to see this was for men and it says right on the bottle NON-GREASY which was awesome because hubs doesn't ever put lotion on because he hates feeling greasy! Plus it was a spray so I knew it would go on in a thin mist , which it did, and hopefully we may have a winner good enough to break his lotion boycott! After begging , he agreed to try it on one arm only.....stubborn! After spraying it on one arm and rubbing it in, it dried super fast and wasn't greasy! He was hooked and proceeded to spray his whole body saying "They should make this stuff for your face!" haha Definitely a new product he can't live without! So happy!!

All the products were so fun to try and got a few that I will be a die hard fan of from now on. It is really cool to products to try that I have seen and have no idea how to use them or what they are for and wouldn't spend the money to "try" them out so its GREAT to get a chance to get them for free and see what everyone else knows and I have been missing out on! Love @Influenster #Jadorevoxbox CAN'T WAIT for the next box to come!
     
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Friday, February 14, 2014

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to whom ever actually reads this blog. :) Much appreciated!

So Eric & I went out to dinner last night to a fancy (fancy to us) dinner at The Cheesecake Factory, normally we go places where we can both get out the door fed for about $26 and that includes tip! But last night we ordered an appetizer and entrees and dessert! Full is an understatement! We went out last night because I figured tonight would be super crowded. About 2 weeks about we finished the 61 handmade Valentine's Day Cards and donated then to Meals on Wheels who provide meals to elderly single people. This day should be about spreading love.

I have been super emotional (big fucking surprise) lately and I wish so much I could talk to my mom. I miss everything about her and even when I would call and vent to her about something and if she didn't have anything to say she would just say "I'm so sorry Hunny" She never forgot anyone or anything, I could always count on her. I miss that feeling. I hope she is having an awesome Valentine's Day and know she is missed and I am spreading love in her name still.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Simple Things

Ever since my mom died I have gotten 150% worse with my anxiety, stress and over thinking to the point of scaring myself out of doing things. I am trying to be better and its a long process of learning to enjoy the simple things in life. Lately Eric and I have been going on Saturdays to a small shopping center in Long Beach that has a Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf right next to some small restaurants and juice bar, and there is another place called Creative Cakery that is AMAZING. So we both get our ice blended coffee drinks and go next door to the cakery and get some sweets. They specialize in bundt cakes but make the best bars and cookies and cakes....and of course they have samples all over the place! Its actually cheaper then buying the food items in Coffee bean & Tea Leaf. So we grab a couple sweets and in the shopping center there is a small lake with tables and we sit in the sun, snack and talk for a couple hours.

I tend to always feel pressured for time, no matter what I am doing I always feel like I have to hurry and that I am holding up time or something else. When we go get our coffee and sweets I get the feeling once we are done eating that we should leave and go but I am learning to just enjoy it and keep talking. Now it is somewhat of an addiction, I LOVE my Saturday coffee with Eric, I could do it all day! Eric loves sweets so he is happy and I am happy and we talk about music or what we are going to do later, its pressure free and awesome. So simple and not a big deal but I LOVE it.

Baby steps.....simple pleasures....everyday is a battle but I am glad I am getting some peace.

Friday, February 7, 2014

I Just Joined Smiley360

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Monday, February 3, 2014

Two Years of Marriage

Yep! We did it! The hubs and I have been married for two years! CRAZY!! I still wake up in the morning sometimes and look at him and think "That is my husband". Of course followed by "He is HOTT!" haha. Every anniversary is bitter sweet because I know my mom would have called if she was here and wish us a Happy Anniversary. No one else did! Our sweet neighbor left us a box of cookies and a card in honor of our day :). I feel super lucky and almost like I am doing something sneaky. I never thought I would be married and I definitely never thought if I did ever get married it would be a happy one. They say the first two years of marriage is always the hardest but I don't feel like we went through a battle or anything, I feel lucky and happy. For the first time in my life I get tiny little moments of peace or "Wow my life is pretty good" They are always taken over by my anxiety and stress but still its pretty cool when they do come.

I have had friends tell me I seem happy, which is kinda of like someone noticing if you have lost weight it feels like a win. I always feel scared if I get happy I will forget my mom, Eric tells me I wont but I am just always nervous. I know she is happy for me and proud of me and she knows she is my heart :)