I oversleep everyday, I never feel good, I have no motivation, I hate people. I feel lonely even when people are around, Eric is not being there for me lately and its making everything seem so much worse.
I do not want to answer my phone anymore. I go back in forth in my head from "I need to make changes to be a healthier person" to "who cares what I eat or what I do , life sucks" If someone says something that upsets me I either fight with all of me or ignore you entirely....there is only extremes in my world.
It feels good to cry, it feels even better to cry so hard that I can't catch my breath, its the only time I don't feel numb, I feel pain. I want my mom. That's all. I hate my life without her.
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